​This was the little angel card that I pulled yesterday, shortly before heading off to Coventry to work at a lovely therapy centre offering angel card readings.

Before I left, I knew that 5 people had already booked to have a reading with me, which was fabulous, but I was a little concerned as the costs for this day would be reasonably high, what with the petrol etc. so naturally I hoped for more. So when I pulled this card, I was reminded that Surrender was the key to the day!

I journalled about this card and what it meant for me that day and thought about all of things that it could relate to. Oxfordshire was under a severe weather warning, with snow forecast, I was due to leave very early and had been a bit worried that overnight, the roads could have frozen, either meaning the journey could be treacherous, or I wouldn't be able to get out of the village. I had taken the precaution of checking the state of alternative routes out of the village the day before, so knew which route would be safest.

So I did what it said on the card, I surrendered, made the decision that the day would be what it would be. If for what ever reason I couldn't get to the centre, then I'd call and see if I could rearrange the day for when the weather would be better, and ask the centre manager to see if she could reschedule everyone for me. I let go of the need to have more people book or just drop by; the day would be what it would be; the people who needed the guidance that my guides and angels bring through, would come to me. I completely let go. It's something that I am practising more and more these days, and it's a very interesting process, I can tell you!

Anyway, I set off, very gingerely, driving carefully and slowly, alert and being very mindful. The roads weren't too bad and the journey was fine. I arrived at the centre a bit later than I'd hope to, but I let go of any stress around being ready to start on time, my first reading was booked for 10am. I actually began the reading only 10 minutes late, but because I surrendered and didn't fret, I was quite relaxed and calm. Nice place to be.

Well, more people who visited the centre's open day did book when they realised I was there, and I am sure that is because I surrendered and allowed the day to be what it was meant to be. In the end, I was really busy and had to carve out a little bit of time to eat! But that was okay, it was such a lovely day and I hope to work from that lovely centre again.

Surrender is such an important lesson to learn, and it's around with a lot of people at the moment. I'm finding that surrendering rather than stressing and/ or trying to control the outcome is reaping rewards, it's paying dividends, and it's a great place to be.

You see, everything is energy. Yes, everything, even you and I, the land around us, everything, it's just vibrating at different rates. And energy needs to flow easily for things to work.

When we try to control outcomes, or get stressey about things we cannot change, then that sets up a block in the flow of energy, and life, events, circumstances will be more challenging. In surrendering, allowing things to be what they are, accepting that this is how it is, we shift those blocks, and the energy can flow again. Then things happen nicely, positively and we are calmer, and hopefully more grateful.

I also practice this when stuck in traffic, yes okay I will be watching the time as I have an appointment to get to, but stressing over it won't actually make any difference at all, so why bother? I simply relax into the moment, make the decision that if necessary I will call ahead from my mobile and let them know, what else can I do? Nothing. And I find by doing this (plus visualising that parking space that I need, and asking my angels to help me with this) that I usually end up either arriving in time, or my appointment is held for me without any problem.

I've been practising this a lot in the last week. I have a lot to do around my home as I have many bookings for private readings, thanks to the magazine article, and of course, want my home to be clean and tidy for the lovely people who will be visiting. Then there's the pressure of trying to get my business plan written and all the other needs of the human condition. So I made a list, worked out the priorities and let go of the stress. I surrendered, and decided that I would do what I could do, and that would be it.

​Each day that I have done this, I have actually managed to achieve more than I set out to do! I surprised myself, but surrendering and being relaxed about everything paid off, and it will for you too.

It works.

We cannot control outcomes, yet wanting to be able to is a very human thing. But letting go of that, surrendering to the flow of Universal energy and allowing enables things to happen as they are meant to. And we can be much calmer as a result.

How can you surrender, what can you surrender to? I'd love to hear your experiences, please do contact me or leave a comment.

Blessings.

Yes, Heaven will be rockin'. Couldn't believe this mornings news, which I first got by text message from a friend. We'd both been huge Bowie fans in the 70's (it never left me!), in fact I still have some of his music on CD.

Back then we were Glam Rockers, unashamedly so. I had my hair cut and coloured like the above picture , actually, I think I may have done it myself, much to my mother's dismay! But he was such an influential figure in my teen years. I had most of his albums on vinyl and just loved the way he stood in his truth and was completely himself. He didn't care what others thought. 

And so chameleon-like, changing his image and style when ever he fancied, and also his career. One minute a rock star, the next an actor, then a singer again. And then he became a recluse, giving up his rockin' way of life, for a stable and happy marriage with the beautiful Iman, in New York. My thoughts and heart felt feelings go out the her and his children, the extended family and his army of friends.

But what a reception he must have had when he crossed the rainbow bridge! Just think of all the legends that have gone before him: Keith Moon, John Lennon, Marc Bolan, George Harrison, Freddie Mercury... and the list goes on... and I loved them all and their music. And they all went to soon.

I can just imagine Bowie with Freddie Mercury now...... singing 'Under Pressure' , which was an amazing track. I sincerely hope that no one tries to remake this track, it could never be bettered, it is perfect just the way it is.

All of the rock legends left this world far too soon for us, but at the perfect time for themselves. But they leave an incredible legacy of the best music ever, what an obituary. What a way to be remembered, for influencing an entire generation and beyond.

When my children were young, I'd be playing Bowie and Queen tapes in the car and we'd all sing along. Yes, they knew all the words as well! Only a few weeks ago, my eldest son sent me a text, thanking me for influencing his taste in music, for he still loves the 70's Rockers.

His constant changing and evolving I see as a metaphor for those of us on a spiritual path; we change and evolve as we release, heal and grow.

I say thank you Bowie and Mercury, for daring to step outside the mould and be yourselves. An example for us all.

​How can you stand in your truth today? Please leave a comment.

The year is nearly over, and like so many others, I find myself reflecting on everything that has happened, both on a global and personal level. Although many, many awful things have happened out there in the big wide world, it's the inner journey and occurrences that hold my attention the most. For if more people worked on the inner journeys, the outer world could be a better place.

I'm not a follower of organised religion as those who know me will already know, but it saddens me to see the amount of consumerism and materialism that is associated with this time of the year.  It is the time and love that you give to those round you, that counts for more than the size or price of the gifts you give. Time is precious and if given freely and with love, is worth more than anything. Yet so many will give gifts rather than time, attention and love.

I think about those who have spent the festive season alone, the elderly, those without families, those who are homeless. The advertisers show images of close and happy families all celebrating together. but in reality, how many people actually experience it like that? How many people find themselves spending time with people they don't get on with for the rest of the year? How many people spend it alone, wishing for a different experience? How many people long for it all to be over, so they can 'get back to normal'? It is a challenging time for so many people, our expectations of how things should be versus how things really are.

I spent the day with my 80 year old mother, who has dementia. She is borderline advanced dementia and has no short term memory at all. Her ability to understand the simplest things has departed, her level of confusion is high; it is sad but at least she is blissfully unaware of the reality; it is those around her experience that the pain associated with this cruel disease.

I brought her over to mine and cooked her Christmas lunch, but as she was out of her comfort zone, her confusion was even more marked than usual, and she kept wandering around; it was like herding cats! I think she enjoyed it but I was exhausted and emotionally drained that night.

My dear, departed grandmother has  told me that this was the last Christmas that I'll need to take responsibility for her, what ever that means. Only time will tell. At least when the time comes for the next stage of her journey, I will know that I did everything I could and more besides. I have given the gift of time and love and I can do no more than that.

Coping with and caring for someone with dementia is the hardest thing I have ever done, and there are so many others out there in the same position. It is frustrating, exhausting, worrying, frightening as we don't know what will happen next nor how we will keep coping. It can feel like a life sentence.

Yet there is help and support out there for carers, yet so many haven't been told about it. If you or someone you know is caring for someone with dementia, tell them to talk to the Alzheimer's Society and to Age UK, both charities have all sorts of support and help available which differs from area to area; but both are a good starting point.

I extend my love and thoughts to all of you out there who's Christmas has not been like in the adverts nor how they would like it to have been. It can be such a hard time.

Next year, I plan to help the local homeless as my gift to humanity; and would encourage you all to do a small act of kindness towards those less fortunate. Time is the greatest gift of all.

​May 2016 be a wonderful year for all.

This is based on the sorts of questions I am asked when working at psychic or MBS events. I hope that you find it helpful.

“What is the difference between a psychic and a medium?”
A psychic will be using their sixth senses, or working with their ‘clairs’ as I call them. That is clairvoyance or ‘clear seeing’, which is the ability to see with the third eye chakra rather than with their human eyes. They might see a vision in front of them or they might ‘see’ something in their minds eye, which is being shown to them by spirit. Clairaudience or ‘clear hearing’ is the gift of hearing not with the human or physical ears. It might be heard ‘inside their head’, a bit like a thought  that pops in from nowhere, or it could sound like a voice whispering in their ear, but it will be coming from the spirit realms. Clairsentience or the ability to ‘feel’, which could be experiencing an emotion, that means something to you, the enquirer; equally it could be a bodily sensation such as discomfort or pain, which will also have significance to you. Finally there is claircognisance or ‘knowing’; the powerful conviction which can at times, be quite overwhelming for the reader.

The psychic reader will employ which ever combination of ‘clairs’ they are empowered with, they might use cards, a crystal ball, tea leaves or something else as a focal point for your reading and apart from these, they may also be sensing things from your energy field or aura; as so much information about you is stored there. This doesn’t mean that they are reading your mind though, as that is quite a different talent! A psychic may offer predictions or guidance, but the future’s not set in stone, and we all have free will. They can only highlight the potential which will always depend on your choices, and the choices of any others involved.

A medium may also use psychic gifts but specialises in bringing through information from departed loved ones and friends. Depending on how the medium works, they may give names, special memories, conditions of passing and hopefully, a message from your loved ones. If they also work clairvoyantly, they may be able to give you a physical description of that person. Mediums bring proof of the survival of our loved ones, bring comfort and messages, but may also answer questions that have been in your mind, most likely linked with the person who comes through during the reading. Mediums may also use a variety of tools as a focal point; others will purely use their connection to the spirit world.

“How do I choose who to have a reading with?”
This is a question that I’m often asked when working at psychic fayres and MBS events. First, decide if you want contact or a message with departed loved one, in that case choose a medium. If you are seeking answers to questions or guidance with a dilemma, then select a psychic reader. My advice is always; see who you are drawn to. All readers, whether they are psychics or mediums will have their own way of working, as directed and guided by their spirit guides. If you are visiting an event, then walk around, just allow yourself to be drawn to someone; your intuition will guide you to the right reader for you on that particular occasion.
Similarly, if you are trying to choose a reader from adverts in a magazine or shop window, then just allow yourself the time to read the adverts quietly, and see which one resonates most with you. Just trust your intuition and see who you feel drawn to.
All readers are in the business of being of service to others, not only you the seeker who would like a reading, but also to our spirit guides, Angels and the spirit realms. Our lives are dedicated to be of service, and that is a calling that we’ve not been able to ignore, but have been guided and compelled to follow.

“What is the difference between Tarot and Angel Card readings?”
Interesting questions, as I think all card readers work differently anyway!
The Tarot has two arcana’s – the major and the minor, plus five different suits. Each card has a specific meaning, which can alter slightly depending on where in the lay out it appears, coupled with which other cards are near it. The Tarot is structured very differently to Angel cards.
Tarot readers often use a spread called the ‘Celtic Cross’, which looks at the present, immediate challenges, distant past, recent past, immediate future, factors influencing the situation, external influences, hopes and fears, and the final outcome.
There are other spreads, and some tarot readers don’t use a specific spread at all, but follow their instincts and ‘do their own thing’. The reader may be using a combination of the spread, specific card meanings and their ‘clairs’; others may simply use the spread coupled with the meanings of the cards.
Some Angel card readers may use specific spreads; others like myself don’t use any kind of spread at all. Personally, I trust that my spirit guides and Angels will show me what you, the seeker, need to know for your highest and greatest good; indeed this is what I always request when I link with them ready to work.

“How can I tell if the readings are genuine?”
A very good question, as we all want value for money and also need to know that the reader has our best interests at heart! I would say, take notice of their approach. Are they approaching you, or do they wait for you to approach them? Are they saying things that are fairly general and could apply to anyone, or are they sharing things that are specific to you, resonate with you, having meaning to you personally? What is their attitude like? Do they come across as empathic, caring and understanding and ‘telling you things’? Or, are they asking a multitude of questions which might give them some clues? Trust your instincts!

Do they have any feedback from previous client’s readings available for you to see? I always have a book of testimonials available on my table, which is open for all to view. If any clients feel moved to add some feedback, then I’m happy for them to do so; but I never ask, it’s always for each individual to make that choice.

If at an event, you are happy with your reading, then tell the organiser! Organisers value and appreciate feedback about who’s working for them. Similarly, if you’re not happy with your reading, tell the organiser! They will take notice and won’t know that you’re not happy unless you tell them.

“But aren’t you influenced by my facial expressions and body language?”
Genuine readers won’t be! I usually explain that many of us have worked on the psychic telephone lines, and we aren’t able to see the person al all so can’t be influenced; we simply use our ‘clairs’, our cards or whatever tools we employ. We trust our spirit guides to share whatever you, the enquirer needs to know.

Even when doing face-to-face readings, I often have my eyes closed, as my guides and angels are showing and telling me things, I find it helpful to block out what’s around me and completely focus on my connection to spirit.

“I’m afraid that you’ll see ‘bad’ things…..”
No genuine readers should ever be telling you ‘bad’ things and by this, I know from experience this fear is around the prediction of a death, accident or loss of some other kind. Personally, I’m not shown things like that and wouldn’t share them if I did – for what would be the effect on you, the client? What purpose would it serve other than to worry you? I don’t know of any good reader that would do this either, and believe me, I know plenty of readers!

But whatever comes through, a good and caring reader will always consider how to deliver that reading. For instance, I might share that I can see new beginnings and a fresh start, which will involve the ‘letting go’ of something else. I might sense that this is relating to a possible relationship breakdown, but I would not say that, as the future’s not set in stone and everyone concerned has free will. The potential is there for new beginnings and a fresh start, but it will be dependent on everyone’s choices. I usually find that once I begin to start sharing the new beginnings, the client will make the connection anyway, because this has what’s been uppermost in their minds.

When I began working on the psychic phone lines, I was told that we must never predict the outcome of a health issue, the outcome of legal proceedings nor predict the sex of an unborn child. To this say I adhere to that, I would always advise others to operate that way.

“How do I know if the reader is qualified and insured?”
Ask them what training they’ve undertaken! Apart from our natural gifts and talents, it’s always important to develop them further and keep up that development! Most of us have sat in development circles; some are attached to spiritualist churches, others are privately run. We may also attend courses and workshops to enhance our gifts, our connections and learn more. Like any professional, mediums and psychics need to keep refreshing and developing their skills, and demonstrate that commitment to the world, our continuing professional development, event organisers and you, the clients.

Event organisers normally ask us to provide copies of our up to date insurance documents, or we wouldn’t be allowed to work at their events; and to get our insurance in the first place, we have to have demonstrated to the prospective insurers that we are trained and qualified in what we offer. If a reader is not fully qualified, then they have to display a notice that states the reading is for entertainment purposes only. If they hold accredited or recognized qualifications, then they are a professional reader and not an entertainer. If you have any doubts, then trust your instincts. I have worked at events where I’ve not been asked to produce my documents; my senses tell me that perhaps that organiser may not been very experienced in putting on fayres, or that perhaps they are in the business for the wrong reasons. Unfortunately, the latter is sometimes the case. If in doubt – ask!
 
“Do I need to ask any questions?”
You don’t need to ask anything, but do make sure before the reading starts, that you know how much you’re being expected to pay!

You may have questions in your mind, you may be seeking guidance with a particular dilemma, but I would suggest that you are open minded and see what comes through, channelled for you by the reader. After all, the guides working through the reader may see that there’s something more important that they wish you to know on the occasion, or may even offer something that seem completely unrelated, but leads to the answers you’ve been seeking. And that way, you’ll receive the proof that the reader was gifted and genuine.
 
 
Author Profile
Gilly Workman is a hereditary, intuitive psychic offering Angel Card readings; she is also a Master Instructor in Integrated Energy Therapy (IET) or healing with the energy of the Angels. She comes from a long line of psychics, mediums and healers, and has been doing readings since the age of 15 years. Gilly won The Golden Rose ‘Best Psychic Reader of the Year’ Award 2015 

"Black as crows wings, the mood that enveloped her like a soggy, stifling, heavy blanket. Black as crow’s wings, the brittle charcoal that resided where her heart should be.

The father of her childhood, the distant yet frightening presence is whose loins had part – created her; was now frail. His skin, alabaster white and tissue – thin; his body bent, stooped and as unsteady as a moment's old fawn taking its first steps. His once rapier sharp mind, dulled, confused, often unable to find the words that he searched for. His face, forlorn, sad, confused, empty. As if he was giving up.

Although many, many years ago, when she was a young and angry woman, she pledged that she would dance on his grave when he died. Despite the history and her story, she had learned to view him with compassion as he aged.

Now that it was becoming clear that his life had started its final descent, her heart was so heavy, so deeply sad. The ocean of sadness felt all the more deep and unfathomable and pulled her into it’s depths, as she sat in silent retreat; no escape from her thoughts or feelings; both of which were confused and confusing

Now that it was clear that the undercarriage was engaged, the runway insight; she felt desolate, alone and raw. She had entered into the crone–phase of her own life, yet wasn't ready to say a final goodbye to her father. In a sense, can one ever be ready to face this moment? The passing of one's parents isn't just about their being lost to you and yours; it also means that once they're gone you and your generation are next in line. We are then faced with our own mortality in a very real and brutal sense.

She felt a chill inside her soul, like a slowly melting ice cube as she pondered; that he may already have had his final Christmas, birthday and Father's Day on this earth.

She felt cold around the edges like a softly frozen puddle, brittle yet soft, fluid yet solid; she wondered how she would feel next Christmas, birthday and Father's Day; should he no longer be around."

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I wrote these words nearly three years ago, whilst on a Writer's Retreat. Three weeks before the retreat, my elderly father had had a stroke and was rushed into hospital. The day after I arrived at the Writer's Retreat, I had a call to say he'd had a heart attack. I was frantic, especially as my stepmother instructed me not to rush back, but also because that evening, we were due to go into sacred silence for 18 hours. No papers to read, no radio or TV to distract myself, no conversations. Just silence. It was so hard, I can't begin to tell you, the fears, the awful thoughts that raced around, jostling for pole position inside my head. So I did the only thing I could do under those circumstances. I wrote. And this piece, formed the start of Chapter one of a book I've been writing. It's not finished yet, but one day it will be.


And that piece above, was what I wrote, in the library, in Sacred Silence. I poured my heart out onto the page, wept silent tears, prayed, bargained with the Divine and worked out how long it would take me to get to the hospital if a crisis happened. Five hours.


Next morning, still in Sacred Silence (everyone else knew what was going on) I disappeared across the diamond-dewed lawn and called the hospital. I just had to hear his voice. He sounded fine, and waxed lyrical about the hospital food! But he sounded fine and was pleased to hear from me. I can't tell you what a relief that was!


My childhood was complicated, complex, my relationship with dad wasn't good then. But with the assistance of hindsight, and a Universal view of what was going on then, I learned to forgive him, and 15 years ago, we forged a new and solid relationship. A mutually loving relationship, where we valued and appreciated each other. He was always pleased to see me when I visited, always introduced me to his neighbours with pride. And I let go of what had gone before.

There were further crises over the years, so many times he's been rushed into hospital, indeed this is the third time in eight months. Each health crises has taken more out of him, robbed him further. But since those cataclysmic events of three years ago, he's never been the same. Frail, fragile, much weaker but still mentally active and sharp. Mentally fabulous, but his body has been giving up on him. I'm not sure what is worse really, to be demented like my mother, or to be mentally sharp but physically failing.

I received this latest emergency call around 9pm last Friday and headed straight to A & E, pleading with the Angels to keep him safe until I arrived. But I felt the presence of Archangel Azrael hovering nearby. I got there just as the ambulance arrived. I can't believe how ill he looked. We were there with him until the small hours, I then drove my stepmother home and saw her in safely before heading home myself.


Needless to say, there have been some very complex and conflicting emotions playing hide and seek in my brain. I'm not ready to let him go, yet I can't hold onto him. I have to let go and accept that this is the beginning of the end. I'm facing the death of a parent and I don't know how to handle this. I've not done it before and there's no map to guide me. I've asked the Angels to help me reach a point of acceptance, so that I can surrender to the process, and be and do what is needed for my dad and stepmother.

I worry about who will greet him once he's crossed over into spirit. He didn't have good relationships with either of his parents not his sister. Indeed, his sister, who lived in Canada, died two years ago. This was found out by accident. Her family did not inform ours. So who will meet him, who will celebrate his return? 


Our grieving at his loss, will be the spirit worlds joy at his return, his birth into a world where an ailing body will be a thing of the past. I visualise him being warmly greeted by those he's known and loved earlier in life., as he crosses the rainbow bridge. 


He's had his last Christmas, his last birthday; has he had his final father's day I wonder?


Life for the rest of us will be a different colour, a different shape. There will be a dad-shaped hole in it. Writing and blogging will be my salvation through all of this, and one day, I will finish the book.





 

As I write today, I face the fact that in just over four weeks I will be moving out of this flat and the future is an unknown quantity. I have no idea where I will be going nor for how long. Another fact that I must face, is that being in temporary accommodation will mean that I won't be able to work on the psychic telephone line as I won't have access to a land line.

So, I am choosing to see this enforced space as an opportunity. I will have the time to reconsider my options for how I work next year, but I will also have the space to get back to my writing.
My writing has been put on the back burner for most of this year, as my time and attention has been taken up with the health crises with my elderly parents and step mother. Not only has time been an issue, so has 'being in the right space' to write. It's been an emotionally testing time which has left me not only exhausted but also sad, stressed and worried. Hardly conducive to creativity!

The main book that I was writing hasn't been touched for a year now, it's been in incubation. And that's fine. Ideas have been floating around in my brain, and I have decided that I will completely re-write it. The general theme of spirituality and spiritual tools will remain, but I will shift the focus to the journey of caring for someone with dementia and all that it entails. Warts and all!!

It will be a cathartic exercise, it will be a piece of fiction but will be based on my experiences and I will also pull on the experiences of others that I know in the same position as myself. It will be a journey on paper, the tale will weave it's way through the book, detailing how the protagonist copes with everything that's thrown at her, how she uses her spirituality to cope with the demons, the crises and revelations that arise; the enlightenment that arrives. And of course, the healing journey that accompanies it all.

It won't be an easy exercise, as emotions will be raw and heightened, but do you know what? That's okay. It will be a healing exercise for me, and I hope, a message of hope with guidance for those who eventually read it. I am here to be of service, and there are so many way to be of service. This will just be one more!

I'm so glad that there's an awareness raising exercise going on presently, as dementia becomes more and more common as we all live longer. But younger people are being diagnosed with it too - perhaps that is because the medical profession are more alert to it. But at least that means that something can be done to slow down the progress of this cruel illness. Slowed down, but not stopped or reversed.

I know that it will be important to keep myself busy during the final stages of this long transition period, but I will be 'going with the flow', if I feel like writing I will, if the emotions are too raw, then I will take time out to deal with them. This enforced period away from my normal activities is coming to me as a gift, and I will treat it as such.

I shall take enormous pleasure in unwrapping said gift and savouring every moment of it.

What ever you are facing in your life, it may help to look for the opportunities and lessons contained within, rather than seeing it as a problem. That way, it has a more positive energy and you'll come through the trials easier.

Blessed be. xx

It's a full five months since I have blogged, it's not that I have had nothing to say or to share with you all, but life has been pretty full on as I hurtle towards the conclusion of this challenging transition period.

As you may recall, I underwent major spinal surgery last December, recovery has been long and hard recovery and I'm not there yet! I have been working hard on rebuilding my strength, building up my tolerance to sitting so that I could work more and coping with yet more crises with my elderly parents.

I have spread my wings more this year, and have worked at many events in locations I've not worked in before. I also chose to drop out of one regular event that I had started working t the year before, as it was costing me rather a lot, and I wasn't getting the return. I may be here to be of service to others, channel the guidance from the Angelic Realms, and just like all of you, I have bills to pay!

I've even offered readings at a local music festival, which was really nice! It was the hottest weekend of the year and quite a struggle to cope with the heat, but certainly generated plenty of interest from the music lovers! And... as the organisers have never had readers present before, he's asked us to go back and work there next year! Think I'll offer myself at many more music festivals next year, it was great fun!

My mother has dementia and despite being on a drug that slows down the progress of this cruel and life-limiting illness, she is deteriorating. Her general health is also deteriorating; she has a number of problems with her lungs and she had a very persistent chest infection this summer which has taken 3 courses of anti-biotics and two courses of oral steroids to clear. The good news is, the latest chest x-ray shows that the infection has finally cleared, but it's also showed up another problem, and she needs a CT Scan. I've know for some time, that as things progress, I'll need to make some very difficult decisions, and had always assumed that this would be around her needing to go into a nursing home at some point. Now, my intuition is telling me that this is more likely to be around treatment options as her health declines.

Part of me has had to accept that this situation with her health and dementia could potentially carry on for years; now my intuition is telling me that will not be the case. I have also 'been told' by my guides and Angels, that my role will shift to that of 'midwifing' her soul as she approaches her final transition into the spirit realms. In recent months, I have been 'visited' by the spirit of my beloved grandmother, grandfather (her parents) and her second husband a number of times, and they have let me know that they are preparing to come for her. In some ways I am glad that I am having the time to prepare myself for this, but in other respects, it is a heavy mantle to wear.

My dear 84 year old father has also been in crisis this summer, as my lovely step mother had to undergo emergency major surgery, and he was lost without her. He relies on her very heavily as she's been his sole carer for some years now. this once proud and very active man is so frail and unsteady on his feet. My intuition is telling me that both of my parents will pass into the spirit realms just months apart. I have to accept this and prepare myself as best I can.

I have decided that it is time to move on, I have lived in this flat, which has been my sanctuary for almost three years now, and I have given notice. I will be moving out in November. As yet, I do not know where I will be going and may need to stay somewhere temporarily with all my worldly goods in storage, until I find the right place. Although this can be a scary period, I have surrendered to the process and am going with the flow, and trusting that the Universe will take care of me. Although I do not relish the thought of staying in temporary accommodation, I also accept that this will be happening for a good reason; even if I am unable to see why at the present moment.

My own healing journey has accelerated this year, and with the help and support of a beautiful soul who practices acupuncture and Traditional Chines Medicine (TCM), I have released and am in the process of healing so many of my inner child wounds. I know that it's working, because when those 'buttons' get pressed, the emotional charge is so much less now, and I am responding differently. I really feel that I have reclaimed my own personal power.

The really interesting thing is, that I am using my own experiences to help and support others who are currently starting to work through very similar issues to my own. Part of my life's purpose for this incarnation, is to teach - not just formally (which I have done in the past), but also from my own experiences. It's fascinating to have callers on the psychic telephone line that I work for, and private clients as well, that are in need of guidance with their own healing journeys. I am able to say with conviction that I do understand how they feel, and with the help of my Guides and Angels,  provide the much needed guidance on how they can progress, work with it, release and heal; to finally becoming the powerful souls that they are meant to be. I feel so privileged to be able to do this work, to be of service to those who are in need. Despite everything that I have been through, I am blessed to be of service.