I haven't been able to blog for a while; there has been so much to sort with regard to my mother, plus I was preparing to go into hospital for major spinal surgery. It had been a very difficult decision to go ahead with the surgery, as it's not only a major and serious operation, but a long and difficult period of recovery, which I wasn't sure I fancied!
But as my back kept deteriorating and I experienced more and more intense pain, it became a no-brainer. I couldn't go on as I was. Part of my reluctance to go ahead, was the fact that I would be helpless post-operatively, and I like many other light workers, find it hard to receive, rather than to give. But go ahead I did, and I am now eight days post operative, and healing well.
Once the surgery and an available bed had been confirmed (just a few days before the due date) I contacted in the region of 100 healers that I know, and asked them to keep sending me healing. My intention was, that I would have minimal post operative discomfort (in other words, I wouldn't need morphine); that I'd be able to get myself off the bed soon after the surgery (one of the discharge criteria), and that my healing and recovery would be quicker than expected.
So many of these wonderful healers so willingly agreed to send me healing and support my intentions, and right up until being put under the anaesthetic, I remained in a very calm space and was totally at peace with what I faced. In fact, I was still laughing as they put me under! As I felt myself going under, I connected with my angels and Spirit Guides, asking them to take care of me, be in theatre with me and I handed it all over to them; and trusted.
When I came round in recovery, the first thing I noticed was, that I no longer had intense pain in my legs, and was so grateful for that. I didn't need morphine, in fact the post operative pain was minimal, I took half the prescribed dose of painkillers much to the concern of the wonderful nursing staff, but agreed that if it wasn't enough, I'd ask for more. I didn't need to. Within hours, and with the help of two nurses, I got off the bed. At 6am the next morning, the nursing staff announced that they couldn't believe how well I was doing, even though of course, it was a huge struggle.
I was discharged after 24 hours!
Being home the first day was pretty scary as I was so helpless, but my wonderful friends have taken such loving care of me I have been fine! Being so helpless is scary enough, for a person who has always been so independent, but now I have no choice but to allow myself to receive instead of giving; and everyone has been so caring and loving; I have felt completely overwhelmed by the kindness being shown to me.
I am so grateful to everyone here on the earth plain, but also to the Angels and my Spirit Guides who have been with me every step of the way. Each morning, I have woken and have been so aware of the love that surrounds me. It is like being wrapped and comforted in the most beautiful, soft blanket. I have the most fabulous warm glow in my heart and I am so blessed and so very grateful. It's a very humbling experience. It is also a huge spiritual lesson for me and those around me who are giving their love, support and time so willingly.
Of course, this period of recuperation is giving me so much time to reflect, which I am accepting with a welcome heart. I have been able to step back, detach with love and view the bigger picture and I marvel and what this part of my journey is all about. It's about learning to receive physical help and support; it's about accepting and receiving the love; it's also about being in the knowledge that where I am at this precise moment, is exactly where I need to be. Everything is perfect.
I knew that my recovery wouldn't be a walk in the park, but I hadn't been prepared for just how tough it would be. My body has been put through a lot. But you know what? It's okay! I bask in the love of so many people, the love of my angels and Spirit Guides and I know that it will all be okay.
Each day I am grateful for the small milestones. Day one at home, it took me 20 minutes to get myself off the bed, today I can do it in a couple of minutes. By day 5, I could manage in the bathroom without using a frame, Day 7, I managed to sit for just over 5 minutes. Tiny steps, but each one brings a sense of joy and excitement for me, and celebrations from my beloved friends and family. It is the small things that in fact really are the bigger things. In other words, the small achievements are important, don't just look for the big, flashy noticable stuff. It's love and people that matter, not things, not 'stuff'; which is quite an appropriate message as we rapidly approach Winter Soltice and the Yuletide Season.
So what can I offer you all from this amazing experience? Go with the flow, surrender, ride the waves as a surfer would and Trust! Experience the love, for love transcends everything.
I am blessed, and so are you xx
But as my back kept deteriorating and I experienced more and more intense pain, it became a no-brainer. I couldn't go on as I was. Part of my reluctance to go ahead, was the fact that I would be helpless post-operatively, and I like many other light workers, find it hard to receive, rather than to give. But go ahead I did, and I am now eight days post operative, and healing well.
Once the surgery and an available bed had been confirmed (just a few days before the due date) I contacted in the region of 100 healers that I know, and asked them to keep sending me healing. My intention was, that I would have minimal post operative discomfort (in other words, I wouldn't need morphine); that I'd be able to get myself off the bed soon after the surgery (one of the discharge criteria), and that my healing and recovery would be quicker than expected.
So many of these wonderful healers so willingly agreed to send me healing and support my intentions, and right up until being put under the anaesthetic, I remained in a very calm space and was totally at peace with what I faced. In fact, I was still laughing as they put me under! As I felt myself going under, I connected with my angels and Spirit Guides, asking them to take care of me, be in theatre with me and I handed it all over to them; and trusted.
When I came round in recovery, the first thing I noticed was, that I no longer had intense pain in my legs, and was so grateful for that. I didn't need morphine, in fact the post operative pain was minimal, I took half the prescribed dose of painkillers much to the concern of the wonderful nursing staff, but agreed that if it wasn't enough, I'd ask for more. I didn't need to. Within hours, and with the help of two nurses, I got off the bed. At 6am the next morning, the nursing staff announced that they couldn't believe how well I was doing, even though of course, it was a huge struggle.
I was discharged after 24 hours!
Being home the first day was pretty scary as I was so helpless, but my wonderful friends have taken such loving care of me I have been fine! Being so helpless is scary enough, for a person who has always been so independent, but now I have no choice but to allow myself to receive instead of giving; and everyone has been so caring and loving; I have felt completely overwhelmed by the kindness being shown to me.
I am so grateful to everyone here on the earth plain, but also to the Angels and my Spirit Guides who have been with me every step of the way. Each morning, I have woken and have been so aware of the love that surrounds me. It is like being wrapped and comforted in the most beautiful, soft blanket. I have the most fabulous warm glow in my heart and I am so blessed and so very grateful. It's a very humbling experience. It is also a huge spiritual lesson for me and those around me who are giving their love, support and time so willingly.
Of course, this period of recuperation is giving me so much time to reflect, which I am accepting with a welcome heart. I have been able to step back, detach with love and view the bigger picture and I marvel and what this part of my journey is all about. It's about learning to receive physical help and support; it's about accepting and receiving the love; it's also about being in the knowledge that where I am at this precise moment, is exactly where I need to be. Everything is perfect.
I knew that my recovery wouldn't be a walk in the park, but I hadn't been prepared for just how tough it would be. My body has been put through a lot. But you know what? It's okay! I bask in the love of so many people, the love of my angels and Spirit Guides and I know that it will all be okay.
Each day I am grateful for the small milestones. Day one at home, it took me 20 minutes to get myself off the bed, today I can do it in a couple of minutes. By day 5, I could manage in the bathroom without using a frame, Day 7, I managed to sit for just over 5 minutes. Tiny steps, but each one brings a sense of joy and excitement for me, and celebrations from my beloved friends and family. It is the small things that in fact really are the bigger things. In other words, the small achievements are important, don't just look for the big, flashy noticable stuff. It's love and people that matter, not things, not 'stuff'; which is quite an appropriate message as we rapidly approach Winter Soltice and the Yuletide Season.
So what can I offer you all from this amazing experience? Go with the flow, surrender, ride the waves as a surfer would and Trust! Experience the love, for love transcends everything.
I am blessed, and so are you xx
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