I'm still in my transition phase, still getting to grips with the lessons I came to this lifetime to learn; they are ongoing, but I am getting there. I am following my intuition, going with the flow in all areas of my life, and believe you me, life is easier that way. Life flows in a way it never did before, as I allow the guidance of my beloved spirit guides and Angels to lead me through.
I recently made the very difficult decision to go ahead with spinal surgery, an option that I had been determined to avoid at all costs. But, recent events have shown me that this is the sensible way forward. I have discussed it thoroughly with others who've undergone similar surgery, friends who've witnessed the extreme pain that I endure together with the disability that makes life harder. I've also discussed it with the consultants registrar, who will be present during the operation and my GP, who has shown me so much support and care. But it's interesting what I've learnt from this experience. Going with the flow is just one lesson, but also to receive as well as to give; not an easy one I can assure you!
I have always been fiercely independent, and to be in a space where I have to ask for help has been tough. But I am grateful and humbled by the willingness and love of others as they help me so willingly in all sorts of ways. Some friends and family have helped out by lifting or carrying things that I cannot, I've been taken shopping when my body has prevented me from doing it alone; I've been brought hot meals when I've been unable to cook for myself; and taken to nerve wracking hospital appointments so that I had emotional support.
One of the things that held me back from making the decision, was the fear of being helpless during a long post operative recovery period; needing to be dependent on others; the fear of my needs not being met. This harks back to childhood, nay babyhood when my needs weren't adequately met; but now the Universe is offering me the opportunity to learn that I can be helpless and vulnerable and that this time, my needs will be met. In learning to receive as well as give, I will also be helping those that help me, for my lessons do not happen in isolation; they offer the chance to others to learn as well. This way the energy flows in all directions, as one of the Universal laws is that there must always be an exchange of energy.
Although I had made the decision a couple of weeks ago, I was still under trouble about it and considering all of the healing I've received, have been wondering why my back hadn't improved enough for me to avoid taking this step. Well, during the reading last weekend, the medium instantly picked up on the fact that I've been in pain for years, but went onto explain that all the healing has been preparing my body to undergo the procedure. He also said that I will emerge from my resting phase, this transition period in the spring and then the brakes will be off! Interesting thing is, at the moment it looks like the surgery will take place in December; so spring would be the time when I am able to get back to normal activities again, and hopefully in much less pain. My spine will never be 100% again and I accept that, but perhaps there's a reason for this that I have yet to see. But...... following the reading, (and yes, even I need guidance and reassurance at times!), I am now at peace with decision that I have made.
Do you follow and trust your intuition? Tell me how it's helped you.